Where is Baby Jesus?

Somehow I acquired the nativity set we had as children growing up.  I think my mom let me take it to college one year and it somehow then became mine.  I love this nativity set.  It is funny though, as the baby Jesus in the set is not the original one.  My brother Rob had an infinity for small things and that baby Jesus was small.  My mom said if baby Jesus was missing she usually knew to look in Rob’s pockets for him.   I guess at one point the original was lost and he had to be replaced.  I am looking for Jesus this Christmas season and he has been hard to find.  The songs my kids sing at their concerts talk of Santa and love and peace, but not of a savior.  The TV shows remind us of Santa Clause and Frosty the Snowman and Rudolph.  Everyone talks of getting gifts from Santa, of the great sales and buys, but where is Jesus?

I have really struggled this year with the Christmas season.  In some ways it is hard to admit.  I should be happily baking cookies and wrapping presents.  It made me feel better when talking with a friend and she said one year all she did was put out the nativity scene.  She felt the commercialism of Christmas had overwhelmed the true meaning.  I feel a bit like a Scrooge or Grinch in some ways, yet in others, I just don’t care anymore.  I don’t trust what the world tells me.  I trust what God’s word tells me.  Jesus has come…..for me and for you…..and His coming means so much more than the gifts we get or give.  Seriously, there is only one person I am giving a gift to that really needs anything…our compassion child, Martin.  He will probably get new underwear, socks or shoes and be thrilled with those.  I struggle with the materialism so prevalent even amongst us Christians.  We always want more and better and yet there are people starving.  I used to think, but yeah, I can’t send them food…..but isn’t that an excuse?  I am reading a book, Kisses From Katie  that Abi ordered. ( I tearily-eyed thanked my oldest daughter Abi for her example to me.  I reminded her of the scripture, “Don’t let them look down on you because you are young…”  I hugged her and cried.  She has helped me see Jesus’ heart. …through some of these books that call us out as Christians on the lies in our lives especially regarding our money.) Anyway, this book is the story of a 19 year old who has taken Jesus words to heart.  She lives in Uganda and has adopted  a lot of Ugandan girls and has helped hundreds more be able to go to school.  Along with basic things like caring for illnesses etc.. She reminds me of a modern Mother Theresa.  Anyway, I realize as  I read this, that it is okay that I am not wrapping frantically and stressing out over what to buy for who, it is okay if my house isn’t as decorated, it is okay if tree looks as though my children decorated it, because they did.  It is ok if I ponder on His word and soak in His love.  That is why He came.  I will let him lavish His love on me…as I spend time with Him and then I pray I can return that by lavishing love on my children and husband and anyone He brings in my path.

My children know this Christmas is different.  They understand.  Our Ethiopian baby is our gift.   The money invested in the life of this orphan is eternal.  I amazed at how much they understand.  We underestimate the spirit of God working in our children’s hearts.  They understand the sacrifice we must make.  I am putting a letter in their stockings….from the baby from Ethiopia.  They also understand what our mission trip meant and that it cost money, yet if you ask any one of them they wouldn’t trade it for a new “I”-whatever.  I know they will have to test all this out themselves as they leave here…I pray that they will see things through the eyes of Jesus.  Our very savior who came and was born into a poor family.  I pray they will see the extra they have been given is not to hoard and get more but to help those without.

I don’t think I will ever be the same.  After the costs of the adoption are covered, I am waiting to see what God will ask us to do next! How exciting.  I used to wonder if I could ever get a bigger house to fit all these precious children and now I am asking if I can have more children to fill this house!

The Bible says if we have food and clothing we will be content with that.  I have a warm home, running hot water, clean water to drink, food and clothing to spare, excellent medical care, a washer and dryer, soap, ……wow, do we really understand how blessed we are?  Thank you Jesus for your patience with me and getting through my thick skull…to see your heart.  Thank you for the Holy Spirit to convict us of sin and to help us to be thankful.  Thank you that if we look we can find baby Jesus.  Immanuel, God with us.  Praying you can see with new eyes the heart of Jesus.  Maybe our pockets are a good place for baby Jesus. 🙂


10 thoughts on “Where is Baby Jesus?

  1. Erica Kranz says:

    Beautifully said Michelle! The commercialism of Christmas is becoming worse every year. As Christians, sometimes without realizing it, we are becoming a part of that. Thanks for your heart-felt words. They always resonate within me.

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